I get so scared to go sleep sometimes. Thinking I won’t wake up until I’m in my grave. The amount of deeds I’ve done so far in 20 years, was it enough to save me from the punishment of the grave? The amount of sins I’ve committed, will it out do the number of deeds I've done? Was it really worth it? Praying my prayers late, saying ‘uff’ to my parents, fighting with my sister, not really helping my friends when they needed me, not giving enough charity, raising my voice at my eldest siblings, being lazy when it comes to reading the Quran, forgetting Allah SWT at times, missing FAJR because I love my sleep etc. Will my good deeds save me tonight if I close my eyes and never wake up? Do I deserve jannah?

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