Sappy Love Poems

I write sappy love poems,
Then, I throw them away.

Just because they'll never be good enough for you,
Just because I can't put my feelings into words,
Just because I'm shy, 
Or maybe just because I don't want you to read them,
Just because I don't want you to know.

But probably, just because I don't know
how you'd react when you know.

Just because I'm scared,
Just because it's so intense,
Or just because it isn't strong enough to
convey what I wanted to say.

Just because I think you're awesome.
Just because I think you're the best.
Just because I think nothing will be good enough.

Just because-

I write you sappy love poems, 
Then I throw them away.
But I know you know anyway.
And just because-
I love you more every day.



Alhamdulillah for everything that I received since my birthday until today, I'm honestly in no place to complain about the bad things or predicaments that I have encountered before. Allah grants me so much blessing that I have never directly prayed for. Probably the things that I received were the only things that just crossed my mind. Sometimes I feel embarrassed for getting a lot of presents from my family, my friends because it feels like I don't really deserve these. Probably because of I always think of others' feelings too. Sometimes I'm afraid that my happiness is not my friends' happiness, sometimes I'm afraid to be happy while some people are grieving on my happiness. For me, the real happiness is when it is shared to others. It is shared with those who are in need. If and only if I could accurately describe my feelings right now.. I think I'd feel better.

Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.