20170426

My Seafarer πŸ›³

Do you still remember how loser we were back then in SAHUT? Kita duduk belakang masa Chemistry Camp dgn Cikgu Salah, kita sembang "aku lepas habis SPM ni aku nak keja ngn ayah kau je Lin, kau jadi vice CEO aku jadi secretary okay dah", "tak, aku rasa baik kita jadi model tapi kena kurus dulu lah" because we were that LOSERS πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ 

Then lepas SPM, aku ikut kau pegi KL & Terengganu (10 hari) utk teman kau workout & belajar swimming sb kau SECRETLY nak masuk ALAM. Yes secretly guys.. no kidding. Padahal she was supposed to study law in UiTM. & banyak sangat memori weh, part yg paling best masa nak pegi jalan2 area KL, aku... "Lin Mijaa takde duit laa", "Takpe, kita bawak bekal makanan" *bersungguh* tup tup lepak & makan bekal kat KL sentral JEEE sb noob plus loser gila kejar bas rapid malam2 sb nak save duit. 

I post this because you matter to me. You've changed the way I see some things in life. The most humblest friend I've ever known is you. The most selfless friend is also you. You'd go miles for your loved ones (which is including me ok 😌) & that's why I love you!❤️❤️❤️ Congratulation for graduating from ALAM school Nazlin!!! πŸ’πŸŽ‰✨ Now you're officially a seafarer, but please never say 'Goodbye' to me πŸ›³πŸ‘‹πŸ»☹️ #appreciationpost

20170313

#13

On instagram, I dm-ed my little (not so little) sister, Dalili.

"Adik.. kakak sedih.."

*immediately she calls me from Maktab*

"Kenapa sedih? Sebab tu lagi ke?"

"............"

"Dah la.. jangan sedih sedih lagi, jangan fikirkan sangat.."

"Tapi...."

"Ingat Mama Abah.. Kakak nak happykan Mama Abah kan? 
Adik kalau sempat, sempat.. tapi Mama Abah dah meningkat usia... 
you know what I mean right?"

"Ye.. tahu.."

"Semua benda yang berlaku ni ada hikmahnya.. bersangka baik dengan Allah okay?"

"Ya.. tapi........."

"Yelah.. tahu tu. Kakak dengan dia dah berapa lama?"

"Setahun, empat bulan"

"Kakak dengan Mama Abah dah berapa lama?"

"..................."

And then, I cried myself to sleep. thinking what I ain't. Every single day.
Until now. It hurts, it hurts. I hope this pain will get me numb,
until it doesn't hurt me anymore.

20170131

#12

Isn’t it strange that we talk least 
about the things we think about most?

20170130

#11

Depression isn't
always at 3am,
sometimes it hits you
at 3pm when you're
with your friends and
you're half way
through a laugh and
suddenly stop.

20161230

#10

I bottle everything up,
I hide my emotions,
I pretend to be okay.
It's not healthy,
I know,
But I don't want to be a burden, 
I don't want to have people worried about me.

20161226

Belek

Duhai kekasih,

Belek hatimu itu,
Masihkah ada rasa cinta buatku?
Masihkah ada rindu yang datang bertamu?

Atau..
Aku sekarang sudah menjadi picisan debu
dalam satu episod di diarimu?

First-Timer

Frankly speaking, before I enrolled to my university, I've never been on stage as one of the main actresses in any performance. Even during Cultural Nights when I had Leadership Camps, even when I was in secondary school or primary school. 2016 must gotta do something with magic isn't it? 

So, this semester I have to take Theatre in TESL as my main course and along the way I was selected to be Mahura at first. But then, my coursemate, Syafika wanted to be Mahura instead of Mahsuri so we had our fourth time of auditions in front of our lecturer, and yes she was selected to be Mahura, and I'd be Mahsuri, the innocent. I was a bit unsatisfied because being innocent (faking it) is not my forte hahahah. Yknow, it was so hard for me to be into the character when I actually have this grumpy look all the time. However, I was so lucky to have a very good teammates, including producer, director and playwright who have always been supportive. They motivated me to do well and believe in myself.

As theatre has ended, I would say it went pretty well. With bloods, tears and sweats are paid off with ocean of positive feedback from audiences, fellow friends, lecturers and also our dean! Alhamdulillah everyone liked it, everyone enjoyed our performance regardless of a few unavoidable mistakes that some people didn't realize. I would like to write more, but maybe after my finals okay? Stay tuned!


20161127

#9

If you see someone being interrupted in a conversation, acknowledge them, don’t let them be pushed to the side. If you see someone lagging behind, walk beside them. If someone is being ignored, take the step to include them. Always remind people of their worth. It hurts when it feels like you’re being forgotten. That small gesture can mean a lot.

20161116

#8

I don't remember falling in love with you.
I just remember holding your hand realizing
how much it was going to hurt when
I would have to let it go.

20161111

Inspiring November Baby

Have I ever mentioned how much I love listening to Yuna's songs? Like since 2009? Okay, nope I think I haven't mentioned it on any social media. Apparently, I still love listening to her songs. All of them I swear. I bet my super someone doesn't know about it too hahahaha xD I still remember how I fell in love with her song. It started on one mist-full and rainy night when I was in car on my way to tuition (like a lovey-dovey romantic moment), the radio played her song entitled 'Dan Sebenarnya' and at that moment I thought the singer was an Indonesian because the way she sang it didn't sound much like a Malaysian singer. She gave the best first impression to my ear (umm is this the right words to say it?) Well for me, she has undoubtedly a unique voice. Then, I started to dig in more of her songs on internet and yass I found it. I used to listen to 'Random Aweseome', 'Rocket' and 'These Streets'.


It was 2009 at that moment and as the months and years went by, I found her blog, I read everything she wrote, I even knew that she loved to listen to Emiliana Torrini's song entitled 'To Be Free'. I found her lookbook and had this attempt to follow her style which I thought was very cool.. Nah, if you think that she wasn't that "trendy", I don't think many of women nowadays will wear shawls belit-belit and put earrings outta of shawl urgh come on peeps, please accept it that she was sort of trendy since she started her career in music industry. Regardless of too much of negativity that people throw at her, for me she still stays lowkey as she is. I love her positivity so much that it kills and overshadows the negativity part. I love how she handles her haters. You gotta be chill because you know yourself better than others. I'm not saying this as I'm totally 360 supporting what she's doing, but I think there's so much of bright sides that we can look into her hardwork as she brings Malaysia's name to a whole new level; international which is so little of us do care about it. For me, she is an inspiring lady. A lady with attitude, beautiful brain and wonderful talent that shouldn't be taken for granted.

Happy 29th Birthday Yuna, in advance ✨


20161002

1438 Hijrah

Happy new year to all Muslims! Alhamdulillah it's a brand new year for us. Let's turn over a new leaf. Let's be better, let's be steadfast in doing good deeds. Let's build a very good rapport with everyone we know and befriends. Let's fight for the best for our dunya wal akhirah. Let's keep on praying for the best for our brothers and sisters all over the world. 

I may not be good as my words, but I'm always trying to and I couldn't thank Allah more for keeping my sins out of people's sights. May Allah have mercy on us all. May Allah ease us all. 

20160929

College Life (Part 1 - Academic)

Alhamdulillah, I already made it to the third year of degree. There are one more semester plus practicum left then I'm done with degree oh yass. Time sure flies so fast, isn't it? It feels like it was just yesterday I unpacked my big luggage in '939', so called home. I didn't write so much about how my college life looks like in previous posts. I've never been bothered to write one because of packed schedules. But this time before I get older, I want to write about it so that I won't forget how does it feel like to be a college student. And when I have kids or grandchildren, they will flipping through these posts and go with "Oh yass that's how my grandma rolls πŸ˜‰".

I can say that being a university or college student is AWESOME (it'd be more fun if you have more money kids, like seriously no kidding Aeon Mall is just 7 minutes of walking distance), thus for those who say the other way round might be underdogs? Or they do not have a clear vision or mission in doing things? Maybe. Might be. Hello, wakey wakey! This is the right time to try everything! I mean everything which is good. Okay, back on track, basically being a college student, as usual we have classes every weekdays, we sometimes do have practices or meetings too during weekends and for me I also have *extra class* which I always attend when final examination is around the corner. Then, second week of lectures, we will be loaded with assignments, continuously with fourth or fifth week, we will be having our assignments submission and also tests. Then mid-semester exam, assignments again and last but not least, final examination which only covers 30% of assessments. Pretty cool, isn't it? I think the coursework given is quite good, because in my view, to be able to be listed in President's List or Dean's List, I need to always maintain my performance in academic and personal enhancement subject. In my college, we call it PEC subject. Everyone in my college knows how burdening the PEC subjects are, even the lecturers too, BUT on the bright side, it teaches us patience, management, leadership, communication skills and yet sometimes lead us to ass-kissing the lecturers. Oops! πŸ™ˆπŸ™Š

20160928

#7

Bodoh orang kita nampak,
Bodoh sendiri?
Kita buta tulikan saja.

20160830

You Don't (!)

When someone gets married, you don't get to decide how their wedding should take place. When someone is married, you don't get to decide when they should have kids. When someone has a baby, you don't get to decide how they should raise the baby. When someone is depressed, you don't get to decide how serious their depression is or whether they're faking it or not. When someone tells you they're frustrated and emotionally drained, you don't get to decide whether it's true or not, only because the person seems to have a happy life. When a Muslim doesn't look as pious as you expect them to be, you don't get to decide that they're doomed to hell or not. And the list goes on.

The point is, your opinions or comments are not required. If you wish to offer a sincere advice, go ahead but know when, where and how to do it. Apart from that, back off and let others live their lives peacefully.

20160807

Sky


"There are people who are always in love with the sky, no matter the weather. One day you will find someone who'll love you the same way."

20160731

#6

"Feelings don't die easily because we keep feeding them with memories."

20160712

#5

I grabbed the pen to write my misery,
but the pen cried before my eyes did.

20160530

Sappy Love Poems


I write sappy love poems,
Then, I throw them away.

Just because they'll never be good enough for you,
Just because I can't put my feelings into words,
Just because I'm shy, 
Or maybe just because I don't want you to read them,
Just because I don't want you to know.

But probably, just because I don't know
how you'd react when you know.

Just because I'm scared,
Just because it's so intense,
Or just because it isn't strong enough to
convey what I wanted to say.

Just because I think you're awesome.
Just because I think you're the best.
Just because I think nothing will be good enough.

Just because-

I write you sappy love poems, 
Then I throw them away.
But I know you know anyway.
And just because-
I love you more every day.