Alhamdulillah, I still didn't get any spot or call to any public university to further my studies in degree level. I'm writing this, not because I want to brag or bitching around about my fate, NO. I just want to share my not-so-lucky-yet (read: tak ada rezeki lagi) experience to those who might think they are the only ones who have problems to handle. If any of my friends ask me what I feel about it, I just want to let you guys know that, I'm totally fine. I've came to the point where I've accustomed to the pains and I've picked every pieces of mine and glued it together. It's okay to experience this kind of failure so hard, so many times because I barely feel the pains now. Maybe just a little bit upset.
But, Allah has a better plan for me. I got an offer to further my degree studies in Bachelor in Education (TESL) course at Management & Science University (MSU). Alhamdulillah.. but, frankly speaking, I'm not mentally ready to further my studies in private university as I know that the amount of money I'm gonna use is frigging a lot. As what I've surveyed, I have to rent a house eventho I'm in my first year of degree in Shah Alam. Heh. I really don't have to tell you guys how much it costs. Yes, the thing that really matters now is money. Abah and Mama told me to pursue my dream, as what I've started, I really have to accomplish it to the finish line. Money might not be a main issue for Abah but for me, to be that kind of daughter who is hard to ask for money from her parents, is a big issue.
I really don't want to burden my family especially my parents with money some sort of stuffs, but I'm so lucky to own a responsible dad as Abah said "Iza tak payahlah fikir pasal duit untuk pergi belajar ni. Soal duit ni Mama dan Abah je fikir". I really feel like I wanna burst into tears when Abah directly said that to me. My life ain't a movie. But I really wanna end my studies with a happy ending. Thus, I've settled down the acceptance offer and education loan stuffs in these few days and I really wanna further my studies in MSU. These mean, there's no turning point for me any more. I shall not be remorse for what I've chosen today for my future. I believe Allah has a lot of hidden reasons why He puts me in these trials.
Hey! My road to success is under construction.